Little Voice

"Take the chance, it's now or never, don't do anything that you will regret later on", said Flory.

But........

Cleo, why didn't you? Why didn't you just listen to your heart? So now you're regretting? It's too late..

I wanna tell you some...
I wanna tell you what I wanna say with my heart..
I wanna...... I wanna.....
These are... Just my wishful thinkings, I just couldn't bring myself to do it..

I only shout those words, that phrase, that you can't hear..
That short phrase is too difficult for me. I can't even open my mouth..

That short phrase is too precious to me. If only you could utter it, that short phrase, out of anything in the world, I will be happy.

These days..

I struggled to find words to name the feelings that flooded through me..

But i have no words strong enough to hold them.. For a long moment, i drowned in them.. And i’m still drowning..

Sometimes in life, nothing seems to be long lasting.. Nothing seems to be at least.. lasted long enough for me to feel like its gonna stay with me forever..

Where are you going? Why are you leaving? You didn’t tell me that you are.. but i’m feeling it..

I am afraid.. to look at you in the eyes.. i am afraid that i no longer see me in your eyes.. i can’t help myself but to keep on looking.. coz all i can see.. all i wanna see now is you..

Without a word.. I’ve fallen too fast.. At this very moment, im missing you.. trying to distract myself.. but its not easy.. no matter how much i try.. my thoughts always find a way.. to come back to you..